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    • The Hiking Trails & Safety Information >
      • Abby Grind: Abbotsford
      • Alder Flats: Golden Ears
      • Alouette Mtn: Golden Ears Provincial Park
      • Ancient Cedars Trail
      • Al's Habrich Ridge Trail: Sea to Sky Gondola
      • B.C.M.C. Grouse Mountain
      • Bear Mtn: Mission, BC
      • Big Cedar & Kennedy Falls: Mount Fromme
      • Blue Mountain:Coquitlam
      • Bosumarne Falls: Chilliwack, BC
      • Bowen Lookout:Cypress Mountain
      • Bridal Falls Lookout: Chilliwack-Agassiz
      • Brother's Creek: North Vancouver
      • Community Forest: Chilliwack
      • Community Forest-Gloria Lookout-Mt. Thurston-Elk Mtn-Chilliwack
      • Coquitlam Crunch: Coquitlam
      • Cheakamus Lake: Whistler
      • Crystal Falls: Coquitlam, BC
      • Dewdney Grind: Mission
      • Diez Vistas: Buntzen Lake
      • Dragon's Back: Hope, BC
      • East-West Connector Bridge Trail~Golden Ears Provincial Park
      • Eaton Lake: Hope
      • Elfin Lakes: Squamish
      • Elk Mountain: Chilliwack
      • Evan's Creek: Golden Ears Provincial Park
      • First Peak: Seymour Mountain
      • Ford Mtn: Chilliwack
      • Grouse Grind: West Vancouver
      • Garibaldi Lake: Squamish
      • Harrison Grind/Campbell Lake: Fraser Valley
      • Harrison Lookout/Fire Tower
      • Heather Trail: Manning Park
      • High Note Trail: Whistler
      • Hillkeep: Chilliwack
      • Hope Lookout Trail
      • Horne Lake Caves Provincial Park: Vancouver Island
      • Jacobson's Lake to Palmer Pond
      • Joffre Lakes: Pemberton
      • Jug Island: Belcarra Regional Park
      • Ladner Creek Train Trestle: Coquihalla Hwy
      • Killarney Lake: Bowen Island
      • Lake Lovely-Squamish
      • Larch Meadows: Manning Park
      • Levette Lake Loop: Squamish
      • Lewx Qwo:m (luhw KWOM): Chilliwack
      • Lindeman & Greendrop Lakes: Chilliwack
      • Lightning Lakes: Manning Park
      • Lindsay Lake Loop: Buntzen Lake
      • Little Douglas Lake: Coquihalla Summit
      • Lower Falls-East Canyon Parking Lot: Golden Ears
      • Lynn Loop: Lynn Headwaters Regiona Park
      • Lower Hollyburn: Cypress Mtn
      • Lynn Peak: Lynn Headwaters Regional Park
      • McKee Peak-Cliffside Caves
      • Mehatl Falls
      • Menzies: Golden Ears Provincial Park
      • Minnekhada Park: Coquitlam
      • Mount Cheam: Chilliwack
      • Mount Fromme: North Van
      • Mount Sleese to Memorial Plaque: Chiliwack
      • Mount St. Benedict: Mission
      • Mount Strachan: Mount Seymour
      • Mt. Thom: Chilliwack
      • Mt. Gardner: Bowen Island
      • Mt. Woodslide
      • Munro & Denette Lakes: Coquitlam
      • Mystery Lake: Mount Seymour
      • Needle Peak/Flatiron: Coquihalla Highway
      • Norvan Falls: Lynn Headwaters Regional Park
      • Othello Tunnels-Nicola Valley Loop
      • Parkhurst Ghost Town: Whistler
      • Panorama Ridge: Squamish
      • Petgill Lake: Howe Sound
      • Poland Lake-EC Manning Park
      • Quarry Rock: Deep Cove
      • Ravens Bluff-Mission
      • Red Mountain: Mission
      • Salmon Ridge Trail: Chilliwack, BC
      • Sandy Cove Trail: Harrison Hot Springs
      • Sasquatch Caves: Hope
      • Sea to Summit: Sea to Sky Gondola
      • Skyline: Grouse Mountain
      • Skyline 1: Manning Park
      • Spirit Caves-Yale, BC
      • St. Mark's: Cypress Mountain
      • Statlu Lake
      • The Stawamus Chief: Squamish
      • Tikwalus Trail: Spuzzum
      • Trickle Creek Treehouse
      • Thacker Mountain Trail: Hope
      • Tunnel Bluffs: Howe Sound
      • Vedder: Chilliwack
      • Watersprite Lake: Squamish
      • Wedgemont Lake: Whislter
      • Wells Peak
      • Widgeon Falls
      • Williams Peak
      • Windy Joe: Manning Park
      • Woodland Walk to Sawblade Falls
      • Zoa Peak: Coquihallia Hwy
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      • Bowen Lookout
      • Dog Mountain: Day
      • Callaghan Valley
      • Dog Mountain: Night
      • Eagle Bluffs
      • Elfin Lakes to Red Heather Hut >
        • Fat Dog
        • First Pump
        • Hollyburn
        • Lightning Lakes Loop
        • Rainbow Lake
        • Sasquatch Mountain Snowshoe: Hemlock Valley
        • SS Grind
        • Stawberry Flats
        • Zoa
    • The U.S.A. Hikes >
      • Blue Lake: Northern Cascades
      • Chain Lakes
      • Damfino Lakes
      • Deception Pass State Park: Washington, USA
      • Oyster Dome
      • Yellow Aster Butte
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      • Aldergrove Regional Park: Aldergrove
      • Blue Heron Reserve: Chilliwack
      • Brae Island: Fort Langley
      • Burn's Bog: Delta
      • Burnaby Lake Loop: Burnaby
      • Campbell Valley: Langley
      • Cathederal Grove: MacMillian Provincial Park:
      • Delta Watershed
      • East Sector Lands: Harrison Hot Springs
      • Elgin Park: Surrey, BC
      • Green Timbers: Surrey
      • High Knoll Park: Surrey
      • Houston Trail: Fort Langley
      • Katzie Marsh Loop: Pitt Meadows
      • Lower Falls: Golden Ears: Maple Ridge
      • Lower Seymour Conservation: North Vancouver
      • Lighthouse Park: West Vancouver
      • Mud Bay: Surrey
      • Redwood Park: Surrey
      • Reifel Bird Santuary: Delta
      • Rice Lake: North Vancouver
      • Richmond Nature Park: Richmond
      • Rolley Lake: Mission
      • Ruth Johnson Park: White Rock
      • Sasamat Lake: Port Moody
      • Spirea Trail: Golden Ears
      • Sunnyside Urban Forest: Surrey
      • Serpentine Bird Santuary
      • Shoesmith East Trail Loop: Maple Ridge
      • Spirit Trail: Ladner
      • Stanley Park Seawall: Vancouver
      • Sye'xw Cho'teqw Adventure Park
      • The Jetti: Iona Beach, Richmond
      • Tynehead
      • Yew Lake
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how I managed to kick my fear of heights right off a cliff By Nikki Burtwell

10/8/2019

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​Since I was a child I remember having a fear of heights. It was who I was; I thought to myself, guess I’m stuck with it! Well true, I was stuck with it until I had no choice but to push that plunging fear of heights directly off a cliff and say I’m done with this BS.

The fear of heights gradually became worse as the years went on into adulthood and especially after I developed anxiety from a traumatic divorce. What topped it off and brought it to now a fear of driving over bridges, was a trip to beautiful Hawaii with my Mom. You’re probably wondering why relaxing in Hawaii would cause me to become worse....Have you ever heard of The Road to Hana?? It’s a long road that stretches miles along a cliff with breathtaking views of the plunging ocean below. It’s also one of the most dangerous roads in the world. So I decided to rent a Jeep with my Mom and drive the coast with the music playing and wind in our hair. Well that was until my anxiety and fear of heights got the better of me and I passed out driving and nearly drove us off a cliff. My Mom was quick with her reflexes and she managed to pull the emergency brake.

So this brings us to present day. How the hell can I be a hiker in BC with all these mountains?

​It paralyzed me. I couldn’t be where my heart and spirit needed to heal, which was on top of a mountain with those beautiful views and freedom. When I met my boyfriend who is the most patient man I know, he never stopped encouraging me and believing in me. It was the determination in him that made me fight like hell to conquer this fear. If he could believe in me than why couldn’t I believe in myself. So I started climbing those mountains again slowly but never getting too close to the edge. Until one day something snapped inside me while hiking, The Chief in Squamish. I was determined to climb all 3 peaks and I wasn’t taking the easy way either. My boyfriend could see me shaking my head saying, “no f**king way” and he didn’t think at that point I was going to climb that ladder and chains but I couldn’t let him or myself down. I marched right up and I started climbing, I didn’t stop, I didn’t look down or to the side, I cried silently while I did it and I made it to the top. It was at that moment that I broke down crying with so many emotions. I was so proud of myself, so thankful he didn’t give up on me, so thankful I didn’t give up on myself. It was at that moment that I knew that this is only in my head and I’m a prisoner if I allow these fears or any fear define how I am going to live my life. It’s quite ironic that I HAD a fear of heights but my favourite place in the world is on top of a mountain. We all have fears that are keeping us from being who we really are or who we are meant to be. It’s time to face them head on. Be brave. Be courageous. Don’t give up on yourself because you’re amazing and you can do it!!

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    I work for Surrey School District as an Education Assistant. In my free time I enjoy hiking, snowshoeing, going off-road, dragon boating, writing & hanging with my huskies.

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  • Trail Information
    • The Hiking Trails & Safety Information >
      • Abby Grind: Abbotsford
      • Alder Flats: Golden Ears
      • Alouette Mtn: Golden Ears Provincial Park
      • Ancient Cedars Trail
      • Al's Habrich Ridge Trail: Sea to Sky Gondola
      • B.C.M.C. Grouse Mountain
      • Bear Mtn: Mission, BC
      • Big Cedar & Kennedy Falls: Mount Fromme
      • Blue Mountain:Coquitlam
      • Bosumarne Falls: Chilliwack, BC
      • Bowen Lookout:Cypress Mountain
      • Bridal Falls Lookout: Chilliwack-Agassiz
      • Brother's Creek: North Vancouver
      • Community Forest: Chilliwack
      • Community Forest-Gloria Lookout-Mt. Thurston-Elk Mtn-Chilliwack
      • Coquitlam Crunch: Coquitlam
      • Cheakamus Lake: Whistler
      • Crystal Falls: Coquitlam, BC
      • Dewdney Grind: Mission
      • Diez Vistas: Buntzen Lake
      • Dragon's Back: Hope, BC
      • East-West Connector Bridge Trail~Golden Ears Provincial Park
      • Eaton Lake: Hope
      • Elfin Lakes: Squamish
      • Elk Mountain: Chilliwack
      • Evan's Creek: Golden Ears Provincial Park
      • First Peak: Seymour Mountain
      • Ford Mtn: Chilliwack
      • Grouse Grind: West Vancouver
      • Garibaldi Lake: Squamish
      • Harrison Grind/Campbell Lake: Fraser Valley
      • Harrison Lookout/Fire Tower
      • Heather Trail: Manning Park
      • High Note Trail: Whistler
      • Hillkeep: Chilliwack
      • Hope Lookout Trail
      • Horne Lake Caves Provincial Park: Vancouver Island
      • Jacobson's Lake to Palmer Pond
      • Joffre Lakes: Pemberton
      • Jug Island: Belcarra Regional Park
      • Ladner Creek Train Trestle: Coquihalla Hwy
      • Killarney Lake: Bowen Island
      • Lake Lovely-Squamish
      • Larch Meadows: Manning Park
      • Levette Lake Loop: Squamish
      • Lewx Qwo:m (luhw KWOM): Chilliwack
      • Lindeman & Greendrop Lakes: Chilliwack
      • Lightning Lakes: Manning Park
      • Lindsay Lake Loop: Buntzen Lake
      • Little Douglas Lake: Coquihalla Summit
      • Lower Falls-East Canyon Parking Lot: Golden Ears
      • Lynn Loop: Lynn Headwaters Regiona Park
      • Lower Hollyburn: Cypress Mtn
      • Lynn Peak: Lynn Headwaters Regional Park
      • McKee Peak-Cliffside Caves
      • Mehatl Falls
      • Menzies: Golden Ears Provincial Park
      • Minnekhada Park: Coquitlam
      • Mount Cheam: Chilliwack
      • Mount Fromme: North Van
      • Mount Sleese to Memorial Plaque: Chiliwack
      • Mount St. Benedict: Mission
      • Mount Strachan: Mount Seymour
      • Mt. Thom: Chilliwack
      • Mt. Gardner: Bowen Island
      • Mt. Woodslide
      • Munro & Denette Lakes: Coquitlam
      • Mystery Lake: Mount Seymour
      • Needle Peak/Flatiron: Coquihalla Highway
      • Norvan Falls: Lynn Headwaters Regional Park
      • Othello Tunnels-Nicola Valley Loop
      • Parkhurst Ghost Town: Whistler
      • Panorama Ridge: Squamish
      • Petgill Lake: Howe Sound
      • Poland Lake-EC Manning Park
      • Quarry Rock: Deep Cove
      • Ravens Bluff-Mission
      • Red Mountain: Mission
      • Salmon Ridge Trail: Chilliwack, BC
      • Sandy Cove Trail: Harrison Hot Springs
      • Sasquatch Caves: Hope
      • Sea to Summit: Sea to Sky Gondola
      • Skyline: Grouse Mountain
      • Skyline 1: Manning Park
      • Spirit Caves-Yale, BC
      • St. Mark's: Cypress Mountain
      • Statlu Lake
      • The Stawamus Chief: Squamish
      • Tikwalus Trail: Spuzzum
      • Trickle Creek Treehouse
      • Thacker Mountain Trail: Hope
      • Tunnel Bluffs: Howe Sound
      • Vedder: Chilliwack
      • Watersprite Lake: Squamish
      • Wedgemont Lake: Whislter
      • Wells Peak
      • Widgeon Falls
      • Williams Peak
      • Windy Joe: Manning Park
      • Woodland Walk to Sawblade Falls
      • Zoa Peak: Coquihallia Hwy
    • The Snowshoe Trails & Safety Info >
      • Artist Point
      • Bowen Lookout
      • Dog Mountain: Day
      • Callaghan Valley
      • Dog Mountain: Night
      • Eagle Bluffs
      • Elfin Lakes to Red Heather Hut >
        • Fat Dog
        • First Pump
        • Hollyburn
        • Lightning Lakes Loop
        • Rainbow Lake
        • Sasquatch Mountain Snowshoe: Hemlock Valley
        • SS Grind
        • Stawberry Flats
        • Zoa
    • The U.S.A. Hikes >
      • Blue Lake: Northern Cascades
      • Chain Lakes
      • Damfino Lakes
      • Deception Pass State Park: Washington, USA
      • Oyster Dome
      • Yellow Aster Butte
    • The Trail Walks >
      • Aldergrove Regional Park: Aldergrove
      • Blue Heron Reserve: Chilliwack
      • Brae Island: Fort Langley
      • Burn's Bog: Delta
      • Burnaby Lake Loop: Burnaby
      • Campbell Valley: Langley
      • Cathederal Grove: MacMillian Provincial Park:
      • Delta Watershed
      • East Sector Lands: Harrison Hot Springs
      • Elgin Park: Surrey, BC
      • Green Timbers: Surrey
      • High Knoll Park: Surrey
      • Houston Trail: Fort Langley
      • Katzie Marsh Loop: Pitt Meadows
      • Lower Falls: Golden Ears: Maple Ridge
      • Lower Seymour Conservation: North Vancouver
      • Lighthouse Park: West Vancouver
      • Mud Bay: Surrey
      • Redwood Park: Surrey
      • Reifel Bird Santuary: Delta
      • Rice Lake: North Vancouver
      • Richmond Nature Park: Richmond
      • Rolley Lake: Mission
      • Ruth Johnson Park: White Rock
      • Sasamat Lake: Port Moody
      • Spirea Trail: Golden Ears
      • Sunnyside Urban Forest: Surrey
      • Serpentine Bird Santuary
      • Shoesmith East Trail Loop: Maple Ridge
      • Spirit Trail: Ladner
      • Stanley Park Seawall: Vancouver
      • Sye'xw Cho'teqw Adventure Park
      • The Jetti: Iona Beach, Richmond
      • Tynehead
      • Yew Lake
  • My Blogging
  • Jorullo Bridge Hiking Tour Puerto Vallarta, Mexico
  • Mt. Kilimanjaro
  • In the River Valley Hikes
  • West Coast Trail
  • Peru
  • Hiking Snapshots
    • Thru Hikes
    • Bears & Cougars +
    • Proper Hiking Footwear
    • Trail Etiquette
  • Blog